Seek ye first, the kingdom of God and his righteousness. And all these things shall be added unto you. Alleluia
Man shall not live by bread alone but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God. Alleluia
Ask and it shall be given unto you. Seek and ye shall find. Knock and the door shall be opened unto you. Alleluia
Matthew 6 : 33
Today is the last day I will be in my home of 15 years. The home that George and I created to be warm and inviting. Yet, no one yet has claimed it to be their forever home.
A song just came on my playlist, “Seek Ye First”. I had to stop in my tracks. As I listened to the song, the words, I was taken back to life in 1994 when Mike and I were about to purchase our first home. I listened and prayed on these words for weeks. We were trying to get all our finances lined up and I’d applied for taking out my 401K for the down-payment. We were still awaiting news that the money would transfer on time. I was listening to this song when the call came in that the money was ready and we could close on our transaction. What a glorious day that was!
Here I am, some 28 years later, leaving what I thought would be my forever, happily ever after home and embarking on yet another adventure to search for my next (and hopefully last) forever home. Hearing this song brought back all the memories of waiting patiently, wanting to move forward yet stuck until we got word that funding was available. That’s pretty much what is happening today. Needing to be patient and wait for “funding” to happen so I can close on a new home for me.
I know that God is here – that God is watching over me. I want to impose my will on Him. Selfish, I know. I don’t like the inconveniences that come from being “in between” spaces. In between one home and another, one life and another. Waiting requires so much patience. While I am a patient person, even I have my limits of what is deemed acceptable.
Yet, God sent me a song, a sign, that if I seek Him first, and ask Him – then he will find me the place I should be. If I knock, the door will open. Someday I will inherit His kingdom, the ultimate forever home.
Please, dear God, I am seeking, asking and knocking today. Find me a place to live where I can continue to serve You and serve those around me until it is time for me to enter Your Kingdom.
Update: December 2020
As I sit and re-read this message from April, I need to stop and give thanks. In June of this year, on the tenth of the month, I closed on the sale of my San Jose home and also on the purchase of my new home in Roseville.
During the month of May I was able to look at a few homes which were listed for sale. There was one that seemed to be “calling” to me and I wanted to return to that home for a second time. Just prior to that second visit, I stopped at a house up the street and toured it. At first glance, I wasn’t sure about this home. However, after the second look at the first house, I determined that the first home wouldn’t work. As I thought about the other home I looked at it occurred to me that I could make it my home with some renovations….. and put in an offer.
So, here I sit in my newest home and looking around you can see that I have made it my own. From the furniture to the wall hangings, it is peaceful and serene. I can sit and enjoy a gas lit fire on cool evenings in the winter and enjoy a lovely private patio on summer evenings. I am in close proximity to my children and grandchildren so can see them whenever is possible (though, during a pandemic that is not always easy).
I am in a lovely, safe neighborhood with friendly neighbors just as my previous home had been.
When we rely on our faith in the Almighty, he can make unimaginable things happen. I asked, I sought and I knocked and a door opened to me. I am so thankful to be right where I am, right now.